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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

stick a fork in me IM DONE


For so long I tried to figure out if it was me.And for what seems like forever, ive swept my emotions under the rug, just to keep things between us neat and tidy. No matter how many times I explain it to him he doesn’t understand. He keeps on saying “I don’t know what to do anymore” but I told him, its what he never did. He’s confused and thinks that us seeing each other will “fix” our problems. im realizing that he’s in love with my face.



He’s draining me emotionally and im running out of like. My “I loves you’s” are “I like you’s” because love comes from the heart; He stands on my heart putting pressure on it, causing it to burst.


And when it burst my mouth says what my heart’s been screaming all along.


I think I figured out today why I don’t use those words. I’m scared is what I tell him, I want to is what im thinking, “If you care about me you wont say it” is what my heart tells me.

Your heart operates everything in your body, your blood flow, your breathing your brain... I want to protect mine; because if I don’t I could malfunction. Repairs cost to much and its never really fixed, their just temporary; they just adjust it for the moment until the band aide starts to rip. He pressures me to Love to him claiming that’s all he needs from me, but what I need from him I don’t think ill ever get

Thursday, October 16, 2008

MEMO TO SELF


LISTEN TO WHAT YOUR MOM ALWAYS TOLD YOU.

STAND UP FOR YOURSELF.

NEVER EVER COMPROMISE YOUR SELF!!


UNLESS IT BENEFITS YOU. ( SHRUGS SHOULDERS, THEN GO RIGHT AHEAD)


COMPROMISE-A SETTLEMENT OF DIFFERENCES


SELFISH-CONCERNED ONLY WITH ONES OWN INTEREST


IM SELFISH FOR NOT COMPROMISING MYSELF, AND IF COMPROMISING BENEFITS ME THEN IM NOT REALLY COMPROMISING. THEREFORE IM NOT REALLY SELFISH !!


THIS FEELS GOOD, I SHOULD STAND UP FOR MYSELF MORE OFTEN

LISTEN TO YOUR MOM

Out with the old in with the New






Business Management people!



Fall is here and although it was 80 somethin degrees today the leaves are falling and turning nice warm colors. It def. sets the mood for sexy warm sweaters scarfs boots n what not.



Im not a fashion freak or even a camera whore..HELL im not even a shop a holic BUT i do buy nice things that last me for a super long time and are offically are my favorite pieces. Ne who im kind of dissapointed (i know its spelled worng i can NEVER get it right)because this time last year I bought a few jackets and mine are better than what is out now!! Express is one of my favorite clothing stores, always fully stocked, great customer service, pleated pants, great quality..you get the idea. I never feel bad for spending in that store cause its always worth it but look at these.. havent you seen them before??



Express is a little behind, this black leather trench coat, was a sell out at BEBE last year. && this boring pink P coat doesnt even scream fall it would prolly look nice in the winter, but the point is IVE SEEN it before. Now before i get ahead of myself I am in love with Expresses cropped leather Jackets, but its NOT a good investment, I cant even where them now, because its hot in the day and freezing at night. O well, maybe next year. Im just a little disapointed because i waited all summer for fall excitement thinking OUT WITH THE OLD IN WITH THE NEW. but it looks like ill be at forever 21 for now, at least they have nice creams and browns.